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Some old critique to ‘true love waits’ and Joshua Harris…


true love waits
and that’s okay
but you seem to spend your time waiting
ain’t that extremely frustrating?

(the irresistible 21st century virgin boy)

Last week I had a serious flu and I was quite sick, and not able to do much at all, not even reading or thinking, so I was lying on my bed listening to old CD’s with demo songs that I recorded years ago, when I still used the nick/artist name ‘the irresistible 21st century virgin boy’*. One of the old CD’s contained a song I kissed waiting goodbye that I thought was lost forever, one of my earlier attempts to do something with beats and guitars together in a real song. But it also  vocalised  some critique to a book I mentioned in a recent post (‘I kissed dating goodbye’ by Joshua Harris), and I suppose more broadly to the rhetoric of the people of ‘true love waits’ , who then haTLW2d a Flemish division here in Belgium that sent me a lot of news letters because I once had carelessly signed one of their pledge cards on some christian event. (It seems they’re out of the running now though , can’t find anything of them anymore lately…)

The song itself was dismissed later because I hated how I hadn’t been able to find a really fitting melody on the sometimes quite random chord progressions. Re-listening there’s something in it that I like, and some things that I hate (that really bad word flow of the ‘don’t concentrate’ part for example.) But is was a good try, even if it got forgotten without ever been played again…

[please listen to the song 'I kissed waiting goodbye' here https://soundcloud.com/bram-cools/i-kissed-waiting-goodbye (lyrics are there also) and tell me; does it suck completely, or is there still something interesting about it?]

The title ‘I kissed waiting goodbye’ does not mean that I (with my weird artist name) had any problem with the idea of sex as belonging into a marriage relationship (I still believe in that, even though I don’t think a state marriage has much to do necessarily with the definition of marriage) but the whole imported ‘purity culture’ had some exaggerations that I found quite weird. And the local people that preached it were quite peculiar specimens too btw… The emphasis on waiting and not doing stuff was what was getting on my nerves…

Like I said earlier in my recent post a purity culture I don’t know, some of the critiques to ‘evangelical purity culture’ I’ve seen lately are describing something I don’t recognise at all, but I did have my concerns with what I did see. If I would have encountered weirdos like the 2 creeps in Sarah Moons latest blogpost my concerns would’ve been a lot bigger. And it might be that I didn’t even register some of the things that didn’t make sense to me, I think that’s how I never picked up those gender roles in Harris’ book if they are there. my brain didn’t even notice them because they made no sense to me, and they got thrown with the ‘this is too American’** garbage bin.

(Remember that an ‘American writer’ for me is as distant and exotic as an Italian cardinal, and Indian Sadhu  or an African Touareg songwriter…)

The whole movement always was a bit too obsessed with sex for my taste. (an obsession with having no sex all the time is just a weird form of sex-obsession.) It seemed like all they wanted to talk about was how to not have sex, and that was not what I was looking for, I was looking for how to actually grow in my relationship in all kinds of areas. All that talk about what not to do is not good for building a relationship. what people need is positive advice about to grow in love, and not just sexually!!!! there’s much more to a relationship than that, and focussing a relationship on that will make it unbalanced, be it a relationship focussed solely on sex or one focussed solely on avoiding sex …

One of the things I probably dismissed as otherworldy nonsense was the idea of ‘never being alone with someone of the other sex’, including the one you’re not yet married to but having a relationship with. As someone who had been always single with a lot of female friends some of which I saw alone regularly such things just didn’t make sense and didn’t get registered in my brain. It was not something that could convince me anymore than the idea that Belgium does not exist… (It would never haver worked with me and my wife either)

Another point that I found troubling was that I did not see how filling people with a ‘no sex’ message and conditioning them all the time to not touch and not be intimate would ever be reversed on a wedding night. I was too realistic to believe such a thing, whatever promises of ‘great sex lives for those who wait’ were gives. I just didn’t see that happen with such an obsessive attitude. And I later read a lot of articles that affirmed, sometimes from people who were completely blocked down sexually, so it wasn’t a false concern… I know it did work for other people, but I who was already blocked on sex and completely turned off by a world around me that seemed to sell sex on every corner but no love was more traumatised about sex on that moment. And in need of simple honest not overly sexual intimacy. It would actually take years of very slowly growing in intimacy before I would even be ready for sex and by that time I’d be ready to get married too.

By the way, there is something really problematic about all the weirdness this kind of movements does attach to the Christian ideas about sex and marriage. There is something dangerous about a good idea or a truth being hijacked by people who exaggerate in preaching it, and lump it together with nonsense and worse… It might work as a really good vaccination to ever believe it again. Those preached to who are first convinced but later see that the ballast is nonsense will most likely throw away the child with the bathwater… (an example of that here)
See also Ken Ham and his weird form of young earth creationism as litmus test for Christianity…

But let’s close with what I think is important about true love: it loves! And loving is not about not doing things, but about doing things. Apophatic theology (saying things about God by saying what He is not) can be an interesting way to communicate truth about God, but not doing certain things is not the essence of any form of love, and if it is you’re distracted from the real thing…

peace

Bram

* There was something sarcastic in that name, mainly the ‘irrestistible’ part… I’ve been single and eh, extremely celibate until I was 22 or so.

** Nothing racist about that. Other cultures always have things that are found to be nonsense and irrelevant by outsiders. But I do think I can indeed say that ‘too American’ is a valid reason for a lot of Europeans to  dismiss something…

Bram Cools : ‘Noisetrade essential songs sampler’ now available for free download!


The list of ‘essential Bram Cools songs for dummies‘ that I’ve posted a while ago is now available for free download (unless you want to pay, that’s possible too) on noisetrade:

You can listen and get Noisetrade sampler 2it here

Tracklist for the ‘Bram Cools Noistrade essential songs’ sampler:

    1. Coca cola
    2. Father I’m tired
    3. Unfair competition
    4. Qualities
    5. Key
    6. Doos vol cornflakes
    7. I’m not flirting
    8. Praise the Lord
    9. Nettle fields
    10. Consumer’s delight
    11. Albatross (indie-folk mix)
    12. The chosen one
    13. My old name (original tape mix)

(And yes, the artwork is loosely based on the first verse of the first song, but those were aliens that did come over to paint circles (and more) in the fields, not just to drink coca-cola)

enjoy

Bram

‘Sketches for a liturgy’ available again!


And now some news from the Bram Cools music front. For those who don’t know, I do make music, but not everyone is going to like it since it’s a bit rough and weird sometimes… (Listen to an older compilation called ‘I am the Belgian Christian lo-fi scene’ for example to get an idea…)

Years ago, in 2007, I took the RPM challenge, and recorded an album in a month (februari even, the shortest)! It don’t think it’ll ever reach the top-40 though (none of my music ever will I’m afraid…) since it was a weird, raw, lo-fi and not very professional concept album loosely based on the classical liturgies. It had all kind of weird musical styles, and was sung in a lot of different languages (Dutch, English, Latin, Greek, 2 words of Hebrew and one word of French) There was an electronic repetitive Kyrië, an avant-hop psalm of praise (in 5/8 meter), a lo-fi folk self-written creed, etc…

I made some home-‘pressed’ CD-R’s’ at the time, but they have been ‘out of print’ since forever, and the music has been unavailable for quite some years now… I never even dared to listen to it because I was afraid that I’d hate it for being rcorded too hastily, and since I lost the tracks in a computer crash, I’d never been able to rework them again either.

Listening again years later I don’t find it that bad, so I decided to make it available again, with some songs slightly remastered.

And the re-release is… Tararara…

NOW!

From now on it can be downloaded via the ‘Gloria in Te Domine‘ bandcamp site, where I want to share my more ‘religious’-minded music (like worship, praise, gospel, meditative and liturgical stuff, if I’d ever be able to play such stuff….) You can get it for free or choose to pay for it if you like… And if you like soundcloud more, you can also find it here.

Tracklist for Bram Cools – sketches for a liturgy:

13. Amen
So you can all download the album in the format you like for free or for the price you like …. If you want to use them and need chords or lyrics or so, please contact me…
Anyone who likes any of the songs?
shalom
Bram

‘repetitivus primitivus’ on the Habañero Hour podcast


The Habañero Hour podcast is a very interesting podcast exploring ‘christian music’ outside of the marketing segment that bears that name. It’s great to discover great music…

And now they have included one of my songs (an instrumental called ‘repetitivus primitivus‘) on their ninth episode. The featured artist aradhna is very worth checking out (if you like something other than western pop music..) and they have also included one of my favorite welcome wagon songs too…

My free Bram Cools compilation album ‘I am the belgian Christian lo-fi scene’ can still be downloaded @ noisetrade or last.fm.

enjoy

Bram

some Bram Cools music


oh wait, Bram Cools is me, well, nevermind…

For the not-knower: It’s poorly recorded badly played weird music made in belgium, sometimes influencec by the madness in my mind, the Christian faith, the weirdness of this world, and by various styles of music ranging from folk to avant-garde…most of it can be found at last.fm, and the ‘sketches for a liturgy’ is still found on www.bramcools.tk :

 

1. bienvenue
2. Lorica
3. Kyrië Eleison
4. agnus dei
5. beautitudes
6. sanctus
7. three-in-one
8. praise the Lord
9. I believe
10. onze vader
11. the great commandment
12. Shalom
13. Amen

some more Bram Cools songs:

 

last lofi lovesong
cumulonimbus ex machina
stephen theyre gonna stone you to death  
ik hou van jou
almost naked breasts (lofi mix)  
(geen titel)  
wat ik nodig heb  
unfair competition  

Enjoy

Brambonius

more free soul-junk Ep's 1936 & 1935


it’s not only the naming of albums that’s unique about soul-junk… 2 free EP’s (one big mp3-file each) of avant-free-hop, sample collage-stuff and new-age pentecostel weirdness… it actually was a new years present for ’08… from Glen Glxlg’s blog

1935
1936

enjoy

Brambonius

soul-junk – 1940 web EP


the 1940 web-EP is still online!!

for some freakiness ranging from lo-fi bibleverseguitarnoise to avant-free-hop and everything in between go here:

these are the songs:
Nolines (live on KFJC Sept. 15 2002)
Pomegranite (live on KFJC Sept. 15 2002)
Gaptoothed (live on KFJC Sept. 15 2002)
Thereisfreedom (live on KFJC Sept. 15 2002)
ungstfuncfreestyle (live on KFJC Sept. 15 2002)
Sunk Fang Shuffle
quality freshness and reasonable princess
Black
Inverse Square Dance
Jobbleson
Netherjams
Ready Mix
Sasktachawana
Speedracer

enjoy

Brambonius

happy birthday denison


Some more free music:

Denison witmes is a singer-songwriter with a soft voice and a guitar, making vulnerable songs. He has been collaborating with people like sufjan stevens, rosie thomas and the innocence mission on his more recent CD’s, but these mp3’s are from a series of 33 solo home-recorded songs he did for his 30th birthday party, to be a present to the world. And you can also donate for his favorite charity in exchange for the songs, see the story here:

Here some of the songs, the rest can be found here, together with some suggested playlists for non-denison witmer fans:

Are You A Dreamer?
Leaving Philadelphia
Little Flowers
 
Paper Doll
Postcard Song
Prayer Of Saint Francis — Traditional

Simple Life
You And Me

enjoy

Brambonius

the psalters


Let’s start with one of my all-time favorites, the psalters. A wild bunch of nomadic christian anarchists, travelling around the globe in a ‘converted’ black bus on used oil, that make intriguing music! Their influences are very diverse, ranging from various traditions of folk and religious music, electronic & noise, and things one cannot recognise , unless knowing all weird music on this planet. Their manner of life, and their beliefs are even more interesting as their music, if possible, but now I’m gonna focus on the music… These mp3’s are on their official site. Be warned, it is very intense and wild music!:

Hosanna
Amal

Ol’ Glory (demo version)
badlands (demo version)

the man on the moon and the man in the cup (demo version)
The Lord’s Prayer

El Elyon (live)
Banner
C-Blue (demo version)

we are all lepers here
Refugee
runmeover (live)

Turn Me ‘Round

shalom

Brambonius